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Where do I go from here? Perhaps a facelift? May as well, I’m not going to recognise myself anyway!

I told Dec at the end of his football try-out that I was pregnant, and guess what - surprise surprise, he didn’t jump for joy!  He actually looked like he’d had a face-drop instead of a facelift! 

So Dec’s deserted me.  In one day he was asked to play professional AFL and then found out he’s going to be a Dad!  Now he thinks I've ruined his life! I know it's not exactly good timing but it’s not like I made this thing all by myself!

Rebecca's been awesome!  What is it with parents? You can tell your boyfriend's mum but you can't tell your own.  It's messed up!  I had to come clean cause Elle knew… she busted Donna, Rachel and I taking a pregnancy test together.   I was just going along for the ride, being supportive to Donna cause she thought she was pregnant! But when I pee'd on the stick it turned out I was IT, the pregnant ONE! It's crazy and I'm still in shock. It would be different if I had some idea before I took the test to lessen the shock! But I was totally in the dark. And now Dec's done a runner on me, behaving like such a guy! I'm really annoyed at him, so upset. He's just left me here alone, how could he do that to me?

I don't know what to do? I can't do this on my own that's for sure! It's crazy to even think about having this child, I still live at home with my parents! How would I look after it? What work would I do?  Last week I wanted to get into medicine! So what now? Do I do anything just to make it work, leaving my career behind while Dec goes on to be an AFL star? I'd have to leave school wouldn't I? I've seen Carmella and how she copes, always tired, the balancing act. What will I do?

I need TIMEOUT, my heads a mess....that's why I'm killing time to distract myself.  I've been playing around with my blog and it needed a bit of a facelift.  Anything to keep my mind off it all.  So it's had a bit of a tweek, I'm giving each of my blogs a different name and you guys can write back to me also if you want, which would be really cool!

It’s my blog of 'blood, sweat and nappies'!

Hey, the photo I chose for this week's blog is cool. It's my initiation in to the pudding club, before I actually knew I was already in it!

Another thought, google is one way of distracting you from the task at hand, but I've also noticed a bit of self-deprecating humour comes in handy when times are a little tough. You've gotta laugh, even if your Dad won't.

Speak next week…if I've survived it!

Wish me luck!

Didge x