Neighbours

I realised the taste of freedom is a bit bland without the people you love standing beside you. Bumping into Harold was a small miracle, I mean there is a lot of space in this world to inhabit, what are the chances of bumping in to someone you know from home out on the open road? Harold is having his operation, cross fingers everything will be alright.  He’s got a big journey ahead of him. And mine has just begun too. Yeah, yeah, I’ll start to eat better from now on, but not all the time…. a girl can’t live on bananas alone!

You know getting back to my blog was really cool. I was getting a mild sense of separation anxiety while I was gone. Your comments have been really inspiring. And no Dec wasn’t my first boyfriend, but he was my ‘first’ if you get my drift! And the pregnancy happened because Dec and I were not careful enough all of the time, it had nothing to do with broken condoms and everything to do with human error! I should have been on birth control pills. So, it was our fault entirely. Thank the universe we’re both in it together and that neither of us is running away from what we created, anymore! It’s all about facing your demons! If you’re afraid of spiders, pick one of those ugly spine-chilling things up in your hand and let it run all over your body until you have scared the fear right out of your system. Only joking, I wouldn’t advise that, that’s just idiocy.

Seriously, falling pregnant is a bit reckless at my age and it was totally down to Declan and I being careless.  I remember the exact occassion, but I didn't think it would happen to me!  But it did and we’re here now and the only thing we can do is work with it. We will make it work, we are more determined. And as one of you said in the comments, holding our baby at the end of all this will be beautiful, thank you for sharing your experiences and thoughts, I’m actually feeling really excited about my future now. I’m lucky, I have Dec. 

I wonder what our baby will look like? I wonder if he’ll have my funny nose and Dec’s beautiful eyes? A combination of both of us would be really cool. As long as I see me somewhere I’ll be happy.

11 weeks and still no bump… I might not show until my last trimester. I mean really show! I’ve been thinking of names, I didn’t think it would be this hard. I like Harry but Dec doesn’t, thinks it’s too common.  He'd want something ultra cool like ‘Superfly’! Yeah man.....!!!  How do you come to an agreement on this kind of thing? I guess in time we’ll have to decide on something. Wilmer, Marmeduke, Junior… mmmm. Maybe you can give me some ideas…. Some inspiration.

Talk to you next week guys…

And send your love to Carmella and Chloe, wishing them well for their move abroad and life with Oliver. Wow, it really worked out for her in the end after all the pain she went through. She’s happy now, and she deserves it.

Glad to be back.

Didge x